exercises had been utilized and employed, where exactly did that leave me? It was here that I began to see the empty promises of those who made pastoral leadership the be-all and end-all for ministry. I did not disavow pastoral leadership. Rather I saw it in a new and more proper light. For it was also at this point that I began to see the care of souls and the historic role of the pastor as the physician of the soul was far more than my ability to be a good leader. Part of that